Johanna Lyn

THERE IS ONLY ONE HAPPINESS IN LIFE, TO LOVE AND BE LOVED

2012-02-14T02:36:00.000-08:00

Magtatagalog ako, just this once.

February 13, 2012

Dumating ako sa school before 9 AM para sa Histo 5 class. Syempre first thing na gagawin ko, lalapit sa mga classmates ko lalo na kay Leona o Kirsten, depende kung sinong mas maagang dumating. Nakita ko si Leona pero kausap niya si Niña. Medyo nagtaka lang ako kasi parang lumayo sila ng konti sa akin tapos bigla kong hinatak ni Monsour, kaya kaming dalawa na lang nagchikahan. Then after their little conversation, pumasok sila sa room tapos kinausap yung Professor namin. I was really wondering kung bakit parang hinihingal yung dalawa, kaya nilapitan ko na talaga. Sabi nila, magpeprepare daw for Xanina Festival kasi that day was the opening. Tapos naiwan daw ni Leona yung heels na gagamitin nya for the modeling show kaya babalikan daw nila sa kabilang building. Kaya ayun, pumasok na ako sa room kasi mag-uumpisa na yung klase. Wala din si Kirsten dun sa room. After mag check ng attendance ni Sir, binalik nya yung past quiz namin then sabi nya ididismiss daw kami ng maaga para makapagprepare sa activity namin.

Syempre ang saya ko nun kasi walang pasok! HAHA. Pero half of the class pinalabas kasi daw may pagmemeetingan sila tapos kaming naiwan sa loob magkakaroon din ng konting meeting. Si Niña yung naglead ng meeting sa amin tapos parang wala namang kakwenta kwenta yung pinag-uusapan kasi alam na ng lahat yung gagawin. Tapos... Biglang may pumasok sa room! Mga classmates ko yun. Isa isa silang may dalang balloon tapos nakalagay, I LOVE YOU BABE ♥. Nung una, hindi ko alam kung sinong gusto nilang isurprise ng naalala ko bigla na tinanong ako ni Leona kung anong endearment namin ng ex boyfriend ko. Sabi ko secret. Pero nagtampu tampuhan siya kaya sabi ko babe. lol. Ayun! Gustung gusto ko talagang umiyak. Hindi ko alam kung maiinis ako o ano ba basta nagulat ako to the highest level! Kasi naman no! Pagkatapos nung balloons, pumasok na yung mga nakabalot na chocolates, then yung teddy bear na mas malaki pa sakin, tapos last yung flowers. Haneeeep ka tol! Bakit di ko naramdaman na may binabalak pala yung lalaking yun. Lagi kasi kaming nag-aaway o di naman kaya walang gustong maunang mag text sa amin. PRIDE. Oh well. Kaya nga di ko ma-explain yung feeling eh. Kasi di nya naman to usually ginagawa. To think, nag "connive" pa sila ng mga friends ko para lang maaccompish lahat yun. Siguro sa iba common na tong ginagawa, pero these days kasi ewan eh. Magkalayo po kasi kami. He just made these all possible by sending the chocolates and covered all the expenses my friends used for the surprise.

Pero SALAMAT talaga sa nagbigay. Salamat sa GWAPO? na nagbigay nito lahat. HAHAHA. sa nag effort magsurprise, thank you! leona, kirsten, monsour, niña and histo classmates! thank you so much. i love you guys. happy valentine's day! **

LEE MIN HO

2012-02-04T23:22:00.000-08:00

I was never a fan of Korean or Japanese stars. I always prefer local, or Hollywood. But never another Asian. I'm not trying to be rude or anything, and it doesn't mean I don't like them. But this guy Lee Min Ho is a big exception! Gaaaah! He's so perfect. LOL. When ABS-CBN released Boys Over Flowers, I wasn't pretty much interested. But a month before they aired City Hunter, it was different. Nakakainis! Was all I could say. Lee Min Ho is heavenly! HAHA. I have never felt this way for another artist. Of course, if you scrap out Johnny Depp and Ian Somerhalder from the list (he's incomparable).

I'm quite happy with my Mid Term results. 43 out of 55 or 78%. It's not that good, but it isn't so bad. Still praying for the finals to make it to the next semester though. Since there's nothing much to do, I really want to keep up with TVD S3. Too bad I don't have copies of the latest episodes. I'm so outdated and it sucks.

FAMILY CULTURE

2012-01-28T23:17:00.000-08:00

Family per se is the only aspect in my life that's close to perfect. I have nothing else but loads of sh*ts and remorse. They both graduated Agricultural Engineering. Licensed, yes. Very responsible. Couple for almost 23 years. Their eldest daughter is studying BS Nursing, their youngest is graduating Elementary this March. Me? Well, I concentrate on the degree, BS Accountancy. You see, I love my family more than anything else. They taught me a lot about morality and life. I just don't know what happened to me. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time. But I guess all I could do is regret the fact that I did things so appalling I can't even imagine anymore. If only I could take back all the sacrifices they did. But because they love me, the repercussions are justified.

I just realized, I haven't been a good daughter to my parents, or a good example to my brother and sister. Though we have had a lot of laughs together, entirety during dinners and Eucharistic celebrations, I still think I haven't done my role as a family member to them. What a misfortune that I had to realize this now and not ten years ago. It just shows that God has bigger plans.

I love my family. They are the greatest gift God has given me. If one day the world would hate me, I know my family would be there by my side. It is the largest symbol of God's love for me. I am so blessed to have a complete family. To have people I can always rely on.

Value your family. NOW. Tell them how much you love them and always allow yourself to correct them if they are going the wrong way. It's never too late. Love your family unconditionally. Open up yourself to them. I don't care if you only have your father with you or your grandparents, or only your younger brother. They are still your family. No matter what the odds are, tell them how you feel for them. Whether you have grudges or contentment, share it to them. They are your hope, healer, and lover. No one else can show you how beautiful the world is besides your family.

May this bring you peace and happiness. Happy Sunday! God bless you.

GAME ON!

2012-01-27T21:59:00.000-08:00

Mid terms are coming so I'm quite busy. I miss home so bad. It's been a month since I left. Well, almost a month. I haven't stayed here in GenSan this long but time and my subjects suggest I should just wait for U Week to come before I go home and relax. I'm getting used to this already. I rarely connect to the internet, I'm keeping up with the fast pace of my teachers, requirements, etcetera. Gaah! Still, it's draining me. I might as well faint. But anyway, school's not all work. Debate's coming, activities, daily bondings with friends. Those kind of things help me up. Plus I have a lot of duties for the upcoming Campus Tour, which I'm sure is gonna be great. We're teaming up with NDDU, Goldenstate, MPC, and other schools here in GenSan. We're sorting things out as of now. But I can't wait. Yey!

Though people keep telling me I'm losing weight, I really can't tell. I feel fat! HAHA. Anyway, we've gotta get moving. Things are about to happen. Don't know what those are but I know a lot of good stuffs and bad stuffs are coming my way. So enough with the nonsense Honey! (that's me) Keep your head up. Ignore that love life sh*t and study hard! Game on.. to life! Good life.

LOOKING UP

2012-01-13T16:52:00.000-08:00

I started the year putting my head over my heart. I have repeated some lines in my head like everything will be okay, i don't have to hurt myself, i must focus, etcetera. These few lines have been keeping me up for some time now and i feel like i'm getting to know my old self, which is good.

Also, this year is turning out to be a very good year. I'm looking forward to ILC, my midterm and final exams, and my service to the Church and community. I am praying that everything will happen according to God's will and that I would be able to accept what I have to accept and do what I have to do. Everything happens for a reason. Bad things are magnetic but then good things keep surprising me so that makes it fair. We can't have all the things we desire but we can dream. Ironically, we all have some things to say but in the end life always teaches us the same lesson every time we succeed or fail, and that is to love. To love unconditionally no matter what the circumstances are. That's it. We can't love without being hurt. Being too keen and careful about our feelings just because we are afraid to get hurt means we're not loving at all. Loving involves risks, challenges, and decision-making. That's love.

I am now headed to where I should be. I am now becoming the person that God wills me to be. I may disappoint the people around me, I may fall a hundred times, I may be the most imperfect person in the world, but I will never depart from my heart which teaches me a lot of good stuffs. So now, I'm looking up...

EVEN WITH ALL THE MISFORTUNES, LET'S CLOSE 2011 WITH A BIG SMILE

2011-12-19T08:16:00.000-08:00

There are things in life that we want to control. Things that we want to hold on to and count on forever. Things that we want to, just be.

For three years and 2 months, I have been holding on to a love that's been amplified to the size of a mountain but completely vulnerable. It's also quite a journey. Though, now it has come to a blur.

October 5th, year 2008. That was the date. As I recall over and over I said yes the day before my 15th birthday and he was about to go on camping. And yeah, he was a Senior Scout in our school, and also a jock. But anyway, we were okay then. We were happy. Or so I thought we were. I learned that love isn't something we should rush. Something we shouldn't play with. Because in the end, you are both gonna have bitter memories to reminisce. Still, I thank God for all those memories. I learned that there are a lot of values to take in from having a relationship at a very young age. That some things in life are, hmmm well, not meant to be.

I will miss those times when he would wrap his big arms around me and kiss my forehead. I will miss those times when he would say how much he loves me. When he would put his cap in my head. When he would carry my stuffs. When he would touch my back. When we would just walk, look at each other, or sit for a while. Those times when he would tell me how fat I am yet still tells me I'm pretty. Times when, he would practically and intentionally make me jealous so he can tease me. That one time he carried me in his back because I'm not able enough to walk in the river. Late night conversations. Long hours of phone calls. The Prom (2009 and 2010). The way our hands intertwine. His voice. Even little misunderstandings and differences.

Differences. I never thought it could grow this large. Heaps of differences separating us both into two very different ways. Recently, I can't tell how he feels anymore. Unlike before when I could easily tell if he's in a bad mood or in for some storytelling. The differences brought about by our new environment has totally changed the way we were before. Misunderstandings went to the top floor. Patience, lost. We're poles apart. But that didn't change how we felt. It's just that, it's getting more complicated. He got some issues, I got mine.

Now, I don't know where to begin after settling it once and for all. You know, that talk you have when you should say "Let's stop this complication before we both hurt each other and be friends. Typical bestfriends." Great. Now I have two bestfriends. It was hard at first. But I must learn to accept things I cannot control. Things I once thought were close to perfection.

But first thing's first. We gotta keep moving, because if we don't, we'll both get squashed by time and never be able to finish what we've started. Studies. Family. Friends. Us. Six to ten years from now, we'll see. Real love waits. And if this is real, it can wait. I just want you to know, that three years and two months of that spasmodic, always interrupted relationship was one heck of an experience. I could never have something like it again. ~~I may find someone else, but not as unbelievable as what we've had.~~ I just hope I would be able to scratch what I said prior to this.

But unfortunately, I also have to say so long and goodbye. Even though I have already told myself for a hundredth time that this must come to a farewell. This year, it's for good. 2011 was tough. Definitely a roller coaster. I can't imagine how I passed through all the persecutions, heartbreaks, failing grades, everything. With all its ups and downs I can't thank God enough for letting me through. For letting me survive. So even with all the misfortunes, let's close 2011 with a big smile. Dream higher, pray harder, as we wait for God's perfect time. For God's perfect plan.

REMEMBER DECEMBER

2011-12-03T09:44:00.000-08:00

It's almost Christmas and everyone's gonna be busy shopping for their loved ones. Me? I'm busy counting my fingers for Accounting, how many quizzes left and I'm dead if I can't pass the remaining ones. I hope I can manage. Everything's going a little rough for me and this little heartbreaking story of mine. Yet, I stand stronger than I expected. Still trying to move forward even though time suggests I stay. Enough is enough. I'm completely done with all the drama so let's just leave everything behind because honestly, nobody wants to be ignored. I don't want to be ignored. But as I've said, I'm standing still no matter what. Happy Holidays everyone!

MSU CAMPUS BASED YOUTH CAMP 2011

2011-12-01T20:10:00.000-08:00

It was a great encounter, as always. It really helped us grow more in Christ. Happy to serve and happy to learn. Praise God. We also did a little face painting for ILC Promotion. :)

UPDATE!

2011-11-17T04:10:00.000-08:00

I wasn't quite able to update my site for how long but I'm taking this chance now because we'll be having our 5th RFJPIA Convention tomorrow until Sunday. So it was good news 'cause my Accounting professor would be busy and we won't be able to meet tomorrow. LOL. But I wasn't totally convinced that everything will be fun 'because I failed our FIRST QUIZ worth 40 points and that would cause a lot of damage in my record. Just so everybody knows, I stayed up all night to study THREE CHAPTERS! But unfortunately, out teacher gave us a Practical Accounting 2 quiz and as expected that was already in higher accounting. But I have all my respect to my mentor. I know she's just doing her job at keeping us motivated. It's just that I feel a little remorse over myself for not doing all the best I can.

Though, I'm keeping all my hopes high. This is all for God. Being a servant through excellence. :)

formspring.me

2011-11-09T17:24:00.001-08:00

Hello. Go ahead and ask. :) http://www.formspring.me/honeymalicad

LIFE IN A DAY

2011-11-01T09:47:00.000-07:00

8 AM I woke up, whispered a prayer, washed my face with cold water and brushed my teeth. Fifteen minutes later I went to the kitchen to eat my breakfast. I swallowed my medicine and took a 30-minute bath. As it hit 9 AM, I grabbed a book and skipped through the pages.

At 10 AM I clicked the television open and watched NatGeo. At 12 I ate my lunch. 1 PM, I checked my phone, my mail, and a quick nap. When I woke up at 4 PM, I ate a slice of cake and sipped a cup of coffee. When the clock struck 5, I cooked and ate my dinner.

At 8 in the evening, I signed up for a movie marathon and went to bed at 12 in the midnight.

That's how I spent my day.

But as I repeat this routine over and over, I thought of my family, my friends, and even all the people considered strangers to me. As I was washing my face at 8 in the morning, what were they doing? When I was drinking my coffee, what's keeping half of the world preoccupied? There are people trying to earn a living, giving birth, tied in a bed with tubes all over their body, partying, taking a shower, even dying or traveling. Lots of activities at the same exact moment, not time because we have different zones though.

Anyway, why do I care about other people's agenda? Well, for one, I'm curious. Discovery Channel always says live curious. Second, I'm really wondering how 7 billion people can move according to their will power and not mind other people's business. Isn't it amazing that we can do one thing in particular at the same time? You know, just for once. What if we all pray together, regardless (of course) of our beliefs. Then, that would cause a lot of trouble because not everyone believes there's a God. It seems harder than I thought. Well, I was just thinking, every time I ingest good food, I feel satisfied. But what about those who don't have something to eat? Who can't afford a single plate?

Sometimes, I feel unhappy about the situation that we have. It's pretty unfathomable, really. Many of us are living a good life, but many more are suffering from AIDS and starvation. I don't know if I should feel a little remorse because I know that millions are homeless while I lay in my bed all comfy and sheltered. I also tell myself that it's not my fault why people are agonizing but I can't help myself from thinking. I can't help but recognize the fact that not everything in this world can go right all at the same time. That just like all our other activities, we do the same thing over and over and yet we never find ourselves doing them at exactly the same hour and second of the day. That whenever we feel like all the things are right, the other side of the world will always be there opposing it. That in our lives, there will always be differences and gaps. I guess this is life and that's how a life in a day goes.

I WILL BE RECONSTRUCTING THIS SITE. SO BEAR WITH ME.

2011-10-23T08:20:00.001-07:00

HOW CAN WE SAVE THEM?

2011-10-23T07:55:00.000-07:00

Everyday I wake up, I thank God for giving me another chance to eat breakfast with my family, to talk to my friends, to watch the movies I favor, or even complain about who's dating who or who got the worst dress award. That's how we see reality, I guess. Living our daily lives with real people, real problems, real situations.

Everyday I wake up, I thank the heavens for letting me smile, for letting me read my books, for letting me run through my chores and daily activities. Every single day, I am thankful to still catch a view of REALITY.

By the way, what is reality? According to the sought-after dictionary, reality is the state of things as they actually exist, not as they actually seem, but as they exist. Evidences. Facts. Reality. Are you living in reality? Or you're just making your world up? Are we supposed to live in our own perfect world? Or face the reality? What is reality again? Oh right, all things proved to be there and not imagined to be there.

Sometimes, I wonder. Sometimes I ask myself, am I really living in reality? Because when I think of the world, I just don't think I'm facing what's really there. Call me a hippie, I don't care. I thought we're supposed to change the world. Heal the world. Make it a better place. What else could you sing? I thought we're supposed to be the caretakers of the Earth. But I when I realize I'm too weak to warn 7 billion people that we need to move now, I gave up. I gave up and continued with my horrible, appalling ways. I gave up because I don't think there isn't much to be done because it's already reached its extremities. No matter what we do, we'll always end up starting again.

Just look around us, everything's falling apart. Everyone's dying. And when I think of those hopeless and hapless people, I feel beleaguered. But I can't do anything about it because unfortunately, all I have is my vigilant mind. My vigilant mind which also, cannot do anything but think and judge and complain.

My point is, how can we save them?

How can we save them if we can't even save ourselves?

WHAT MAKES YOU BEAUTIFUL - ONE DIRECTION

2011-10-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

You're insecure, don't know what forYou're turning heads when you walk through the do-o-orDon't need make-up - to cover upBeing the way that you are is eno-o-ough
Everyone else in the room can see itEveryone else but yo-ou
Baby you light up my world like nobody elseThe way that you flip you're hair gets me overwhelmedBut when you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tellYou don't know Oh ohYou don't know you're beautiful!If only you saw what I can seeYou'll understand why I want you so desperatleyRight now I'm looking at you and I can't believeYou don't know Oh ohYou don't know you're beautiful! Oh ohThat's what makes you beautiful!
So c-come on, you got it wrongTo prove I'm right I put it in a so-o-ongI don't know why, you're being shyAnd turn away when I look in to your eye eye eyes
Everyone else in the room can see itEveryone else but yo-ou
Baby you light up my world like nobody elseThe way that you flip you're hair gets me overwhelmedBut when you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tellYou don't know Oh ohYou don't know you're beautiful!If only you saw what I can seeYou'll understand why I want you so desperatleyRight now I'm looking at you and I can't believeYou don't know Oh ohYou don't know you're beautiful! Oh ohThat's what makes you beautiful!

:)

HBD!!!

2011-10-19T06:32:00.000-07:00

To my ever supportive bestfriend KATHERINE ROSE FABAY KAPUNAN, happy happy happy 18th birthday to you. I love you so much Kaayyyyy! We're not really getting any younger but I hope we'd stay this close forever! Wishing you a very successful career and a healthy life. God bless you more. Thank you so much for all the times we have had and we will have together. Please bear in mind that even though I joke around on you, I'm still here for you. I pray for your family and studies every night. Miss you!

high school days. lol.

GOD OF THIS CITY - CHRIS TOMLIN

2011-10-16T08:32:00.000-07:00

You're the God of this City

You're the King of these people

You're the Lord of this nation

You are

You're the Light in this darkness

You're the Hope to the hopeless

You're the Peace to the restless

You are

There is no one like our God

For greater things have yet to come

And greater things are still to be done in this City

Greater thing have yet to come

And greater things are still to be done in this City

There is no one like our God

For greater things have yet to come

And greater things are still to be done in this City

Greater things have yet to come

And greater things are still to be done here

There is no one like our god

There is no one like our God

IT'S TIME TO SEE GOD'S POINT OF VIEW

2011-10-15T10:50:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been trapped? Barred in any way possible? Well, I did.

I was off to Ireneo National High School to bring back Kuya Kirbie's HD and I wasn't really familiar with the place so I put myself at stake and continued. As I walked through that mystifying, vast school, I went straight to the biggest building because I thought that's were all the people are and unfortunately found no one I know, just high school students practicing around. Kuya Kirbie told me to go to the 2nd floor and I did. In every school like that, they keep this gate at the bottom of the stairs to keep students from going inside during week ends, but ~~lucky me~~ I found it wide open. I checked the whole floor but no one was there. Then I realized, I was on the wrong building! What a shame. I headed downstairs and walaaaah! The gate was mysteriously locked. Another misfortune. I went to the opposite side and found myself staggered. Another lock gate. I was really scared and I don't know what to do. I cried for help like some wacko. Oh wait, it was more like mommy-where-are-you cry. I just didn't know what to do so I called kuya kirbie through the phone and started whining and sobbing because apparently, no one was willing to help me. They just stared and giggled because someone stupid got stuck inside that old building. I myself find hilarity in the all the angles of that, that hopeless and hapless situation. Nobody would ever want to get in my shoes at that significant, glorious moment. Am I being too sarcastic here? Well, I hope not because that's how it really feels. I was all alone. All I did was cry and said a few prayers because I already know God's help was on the way. But what I was really wondering was why? What is God trying to show me by locking me up in there? Should I learn something?

Good thing is, Abby found me while the on-duty guard was trying his very best to get me out there and shush me from my agony. I was still reliving the experience then thinking what could be the matter? What's the point I must see?

Am I being too dependent on myself that I forget to depend on God? Am I scared of being alone? Or simply, should I stop going inside some unused building to avoid being barred? Or maybe because I'm too restless. That I always want to be at the right place not knowing where it is exactly. Pondering on that, I thought maybe going to the right place is hard if I lean on my own understanding. That getting lost is the only way to get back. That I don't need to go for my own demeanor but to wait patiently for God's will. I can't seem to see why but I think I'm becoming someone I am not that's why God wants to remind me that it's okayy to get lost sometimes because one way or another, SOMEONE will be there to aid my weakness. That He will be there to fetch me. That I don't have to know the precise high way to be where I want to be but instead let God take over me. I was too busy pretending I know the way. Believing I've done it all, I've been there before. I guess I was wrong. Completely wrong.

Because of that brief experience, I learned that sometimes, we get lost. We get confused. We get quite scared. But at the end of our journey, God will still be able to tell us that He knows, He sees, He understands. So let's stop acting like we know everything and admit the fact that most of the time, we don't know which way to go. Friends, it's time to see God's point of view.

TGIF!

2011-10-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

This is what happened last friday night. My first night out. Taken from Piyesta, and Pahayahay. It was fun but I don't want to get used to it. LOL. We just want to celebrate. :DD

So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways! :**

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER (OCTOBER 6)

2011-10-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

I can't put into words how happy I was during my 18th birthday. Thank you to all the effort and surprises! I didn't expect any of those to happen. To my family, elementary friends, high school friends, roomies, college friends, YFC family, and all those who did not mind the hassle of greeting me at midnight, and serenading me at 4 AM (board mates) and 6 AM (yfc family). Thank you for the video presentations Kuya Kirbie and Ate Aien. For all the inspiring messages, for the gifts (especially Kuya Mon's bubbles and my roomies' big card full of wonderful messages), for everything. I have never felt so blessed and loved. Those were the happiest tears I have ever had. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you tons! I love you all. God bless you. :**

2011-10-05T00:06:00.000-07:00

I'm leaving 17 soon. My birthday's coming. All I want for my birthday are passing grades and a book. A Holy Bible to be exact. That same Bible for students my friend Janine has. It has a daily reading plan, a brief paragraph for some words like forgiveness, faith, love, etc. It's like an all in one book. And the thing is, I really think books are well-kept if given by special people. Plus, it really makes me feel happy. To receive a good book. Purpose Driven Life will also be a very great alternative. :))

THE RITE

2011-10-03T02:22:00.000-07:00

This is just the movie for those who haven't establish their faith, yet. The script is amazing. The actors are great. It's a package. Thumbs up for Anthony Hopskins and Colin O'Donoghue!

TRUST FALL

2011-10-03T01:58:00.000-07:00

Have you ever tried a game called trust fall? It's when you get to climb up a very high, in fact horrifying place, then the others get the chance to catch you or just let your brains spit out.

I am afraid of heights. So, yes. I am an acrophobic. When it was my turn to "fall" I thought of backing out because at the back of my stubborn head, I'm not ready to be dropped off from a daunting height. It was like standing at the edge of a cliff. Really. Ask my friends, my family. 3rd floor is the last place I would wanna go sight seeing. I was holding back my tears but everyone's yelling at me, telling me to let go and just trust them. That's why it's called trust fall from the very beginning. But I just couldn't help myself concluding that they won't be able to catch me. But I decided, I will never get over this if I don't trust them. So I prepared myself, crossed my arms, and said, "I am ready to let go." And that was it. I died. LOL. Half way down that experience, my feelings were inexplicable. There was this second I felt like I am gonna meet God early, but there's also this thought declaring it's all gonna be okayy.

All my life, I've been asking so many questions about the future. How to realize if it is God's will for me, or was it truly meant for me. What to do, what not to do. I have been having a hard time segregating the do's and don'ts of life. Too much worrying led me to depression. I worried about my horrible horrible past. My mistakes. My future mistakes. Expectations. Problems. Doubts. Fears. All the negativeness per se. That's when I realized, I wasn't really communicating well with God. I've been trying so hard to know His plans for me, but not trying hard enough to look around and listen. I was waiting for a miracle to happen. But then, I can't expect for an angel to drop by my house and tell me to feed the unfortunate or be a nun to proclaim the Gospel. No. I have to learn everything myself. How to understand the way of God. To obey Him. To do whatever it takes to put a smile on His face. It's a very laborious responsibility but the rewards are everlasting. Our life after death is at stake in the details of our lives.

That's why up until now, I consider life as a test, and this world is the battleground. One day, I will make an account of all the things I did and accept all the consequences.Learning is a forever process. That's why I depend on God more. I will trust Him even if the world says stand alone and defend yourself.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding.

- Proverbs 11:13

A DROP IN THE OCEAN

2011-09-18T20:31:00.000-07:00

By: Ron Pope

A drop in the ocean,

A change in the weather,

I was praying that you and me might end up together.

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,

But I'm holding you closer than most,

'Cause you are my heaven.

I don't wanna waste the weekend,

If you don't love me, pretend

A few more hours, then it's time to go.

And as my train rolls down the East coast,

I wonder how you keep warm.

It's too late to cry, too broken to move on.

Still I can't let you be,

Most nights I hardly sleep.

Don't take what you don't need, from me.

Just a drop in the ocean, A change in the weather,

I was praying that you and me might end up together.

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,

But I'm holding you closer than most,

'Cause you are my heaven.

Misplaced trust and old friends, never counting the regrets,

By the grace of God, I do not rest at all.

and New England as the leaves change;

The last excuse that I'll claim,

I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl.

Still I can't let you be,

Most nights I hardly sleep,

Don't take what you don't need, from me.

A drop in the ocean, A change in the weather,

I was praying that you and me might end up together.

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,

But I'm holding you closer than most, 'Cause you are my

Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no

Heaven doesn't seem far away.

Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no

Heaven doesn't seem far away.

FAILURE IS STILL A SUCCESS

2011-09-18T20:05:00.000-07:00

Life, as we know it, is composed of ups and downs. Sometimes, we find it hard to explain if we should just accept failures as they are, or fight again to achieve merriment. Sometimes, success will peter out of your way and then, you get used to the same old drama as before.

But believe me, failure can be a success. Usually, when we hear of losing, of deprivation, we hastily conclude that we are headed to an epic fail. But, try to think of the situation you are in. Is it worth the price? Will success really help you gain all you want? Is it really what you want? Winning it all? Review my questions and ponder about the real definition of success. What's really inside? Success isn't everything. Failures help you become the person you are right now. Success is just another thing after all the downfalls. It's just a temporary ailment for all the unfair things that happened. Because as you begin another journey, you prepare not to vanquish. But to fail a hundred times and getting up until all your tears run dry. In some way, when you end up failing, you learn to surrender, to humble yourself down and discern. It will make you understand. Really. Comprehend about facts. Even bout superficial facts. Failure is STILL a success. A fortune. An accomplishment in your totality. Your mind. Heart. Soul.

So when you fail, just think of all the messages along the way. From the moment you started facing your fears, to the last second. Be thankful because you fell. Because you learned how to get back up. Faith becomes stronger. And life, becomes more beautiful.

AS RANDOM AS LIFE, AS RANDOM AS ME

2011-09-13T04:35:00.000-07:00

You have everything if you have nothing.

I keep reminding that to myself so as to please my unperceptive mind. Somehow, I learn to accept the fact that when you have nothing, you can't lose anything. You just can not be dragged down. True. When you depart from life, you won't be able to bring anything. Not even memories I presume. But I guess you'll have fragments. Fragments from your not so long life. The moment when you chose to be an honor student. Or a varsity player. Or a leader. Fragments containing your dearest memories. Your deepest secrets and your wildest dreams.

What a pity we can only live our lives once. What a shame if we die, suddenly. Sadly. I can die now. You, too dear. But is 17 years enough to conclude I have already lived my life? Some would say yes, some would declare no. I could be too young. Too young to face death. Personally, I'd say yes.But let's go back to life. It's much much ~~livelier~~ there.

I believe in many things. I believe that I am blessed. I believe that life simply is. I believe that love is prevailing. I believe I can be happy. When I started realizing the points in life that are compelling and meaningful, I began thinking. Then, I grew. I learned. But I won't stop learning. I will educate myself until I die. Because the moment when we thought we already know everything, trivial or not, we unfortunately create a mistake. Ooops. I got something wrong because this is what I think, this is what I assumed it to be. I messed up. How am I gonna fix this? Again, we learn. Not just from our teachers, not just from our parents. But from our own experiences. Good or bad. Bitter or sweet. They become our best mentors.

Am I making any sense here? No? Well, I guess that's because I'm just as random as life. Almost thoughtless as a croc. I love random things. I love life. I love food. :))

Over and out!

UP

2011-09-10T07:27:00.000-07:00

Up is actually one of my favorite movies. It's definitely worth watching because of Russell and Mr. Fredricksen's relationship and the way they act with each other. The age gap is immensely far and they're just so cute together. I've watched this movie for so many times and I never get tired of it. And now I'm posting it. Ha! Well, hope you've watched this too.

BROOKE FRASER

2011-09-09T05:24:00.000-07:00

How Can You Refuse Him Now

How can you refuse him now, how can you refuse him now,

How can you turn away from his side,

With tears in his eyes, on the cross there he died,

How can you refuse Jesus now.

There's a story old, that has often been told,

Of how our savior died, as they nailed his hands,

He cried they don't understand,

As the blood flowed from his side.

As he hung there on the tree, he prayed for you and me,

There was no one his pain to ease,

Before he died, he faintly cried,

Father forgive them please.

1st WEEK OF SEPTEMBER

2011-09-06T22:55:00.000-07:00

My competition ran a little rough yesterday. We had to come up with an Essay about the 50th Foundation Anniversary of MSU as a System. Then, it was late noon so I grabbed lunch and apparently my nose bled. I was a little frightened. I think it's because of the scorching weather plus all the words I've been reading. lol. I thought Essay Writing was insipid and easy. Guess I was wrong. It was horrible. Aggravating. I can't stand the fact that my opponents were that smart. But it's okay. At least now it's over. Intramural's really fun this year. Now, I'm faced by all the requirements and exams after this event. Well, it's gonna be back to normal next week. Hope I could still keep up. :))

BROOKE FRASER

2011-08-30T07:58:00.000-07:00

Ever since I heard Age to Age (His Glory Appears) from Hillsong's Faith + Hope + Love Concert, I've been wondering who performed it. Then, I saw Desert Song from This is Our God Concert, then Lead me to the Cross. I fell in love with the voice. So I finally had the chance to search who she was and tadaaaaaa! Brooke Fraser. She's very pretty. She's an artist from heaven. :))

BRIDA

2011-08-30T06:18:00.000-07:00

I am not finished reading this book, YET. But I'm getting there. It's not as perplexed as the other books but it's still in the boundaries of soul searching so I'm gonna go with it until the end. Now, I am a bit excited for the Intramural because I truly am expecting an impressive show. And? Take Heart by Hillsong is playing in my background, and I feel light. Feathery. Intuitive, rather. I really am in love. :))

Praise You!!

FOR A CHANGE

2011-08-29T08:14:00.000-07:00

Larger than Life - Mike Serapio

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From the rivers to the sea

From the valleys to the peak of the mountains

You are God

From the clouds to the skies

From the stars to the heavens above us

You are God

You are God of this world I am living

You are God of this dreams I've been longing

You are God of this life that I've been striving for

Larger than life

I feel in love today. In love with my studies, myself, Jesus, and all the things that radiate love. This is the first time I said "No" to the person who left me, who wasted my efforts, and who kept coming back for everything and leaving with the same old lame excuses. Even though I feel threatened, I know I made the right decision. I just felt that God is telling me to say no. For the nth time, I don't want to get hurt AGAIN. For the nth time, I don't want to suffer because of shallow reasons AGAIN. I want to be free. Free from worries. From fears. From lies. From things that are bound to be negative. God wants me to be free and I believe in Him. I believe in Him because He is larger than life.

PROVINCIAL YOUTH CONFERENCE 2011

2011-08-28T23:35:00.000-07:00

I must say, that this is the best week I have had since s.y. 2011-2012. After the long and grueling exams, I finally had the chance to serve the Lord through PYC. Although we had sleepless nights and exasperation was all over, we managed STILL, to put on a good show for the participants and for God. The speakers were amazing, the worship leaders were full of attachment, the sharers, the creative and special competitions, sports, workshops, EVERYTHING was a blast! It was an offering to God. Candor. Glory. Just like what the elder brothers and sisters have said, share to the world how great God's love is, serve Him even though your will is suggesting otherwise.

Here are some witnesses of God's profound love.

P.S. The photos in this post are not mine. Credits to the Documentation Team of PYC 2011. For the Win!

TAKE HEART

2011-08-17T20:37:00.000-07:00

This is just so lovely, I am in love. <3

Take Heart Lyrics

There is a light
It burns brighter than the sun
He steals the night
And casts no shadow
There is hope
Should oceans rise and mountains fall
He never fails

So take heart
Let His love lead us through the night
Hold on to hope
And take courage again

In death by love
The fallen world was overcome
He wears the scars of our freedom
In His Name
All our fears are swept away
He never fails

All our troubles
And all our tears
God our hope
He has overcome
All our failure
And all our fear
God our love
He has overcome
All our heartache
And all our pain
God our healer
He has overcome
All our burdens
And all our shame
God our freedom
He has overcome
All our troubles
And all our tears
God our hope
He has overcome
All our failures
And all our fear
God our love
He has overcome
God our justice
God our grace
God our freedom
He has overcome
God our refuge
God our strength
God is with us
He has overcome

EXAAAAAAAAAMSS!

2011-08-17T20:13:00.000-07:00

It's almost mid terms so I'm extremely nervous at the moment. I am hoping for a good result. A passing mark is indeed a must. If God wills, and I pass all my exams, I'd surely cry. It's gonna be tough, but I will endure. I will. I just wish perseverance would coexist with my attitude. Must read all my lessons and train myself under time pressure. It's all gonna be okayy. I have faith in myself. I can do this!! AFG! :DD

Please do pray for me. I can't afford losing this chance. T.T

YOU ARE THE SALT AND LIGHT OF THE WORLD!

2011-08-17T05:09:00.000-07:00

Last night was one of the best nights I've ever had! The gym was packed with so many MSUans thrilled and ready to glorify Jesus Christ. The opening worship was really powerful and I got chills all over my spine. Goosebumps. It was one of the best. 600 youths raising their hands, singing praises to God not minding their busy schedule. God left no room for worries, and that was my favorite part.

The speaker was a Pastor who's incredibly good-looking, and the Gospel was from Matthew 5:14 which says "You are the light of the world." Sun and salt are the two most important things in life. They change everything. Let your light shine, says God. Draw in the light that comes not from the outside but from your heart. Radiate it from your soul. When you worship God, don't just raise your hand just because everyone else is doing so. But do not refrain yourself from glorifying Him because you are afraid of the criticisms. Just show everyone the real you. Whoever's with you at the moment, just show the you, you. The genuine you. Try hard to know yourself. Because when you know who you are, you will know what to do. And believe me, you are the salt and light of the world. You can give love. You can be an example to all the youth. You can be the generation who will perform all the change. You can be what God wants you to be. Once you learn who you really are, your truest self and your purpose why you're here, you'll be able to do A LOT of good things that will change not just yourself but also the people who are around you. You'll be able to uphold equity and faithfulness. Deserving and commendable of God's great love. You need not to worry anymore about what others will say. God wants you to be free. God wants you to experience LIFE with Him. Love. Integrity. Freedom. Excellence.

Be worthy of God's gift. Be a world changer. Be the SALT and LIGHT of the world.

P.S. Christianity is not how high you jump. Christianity is how straight you walk. AFG!

REPOST: LETTER FROM SATAN

2011-08-16T02:59:00.000-07:00

by Frencis Joy Panerio on Monday, 08 August 2011 at 05:14

DARK LETTER

PAY ATTENTION TO THE P.S. at the end.

Letter from the Devil

This can really make you think. It actually made me really mad while I was reading it, but it made me realize some things.

Plus, I had to send it because of the P.S.

This is deep... and I wasn't going to forward or share it, but that last line... you'll see.

A LETTER TO YOU FROM SATAN

I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores.

You awoke without kneeling to pray. As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night.

You are so unthankful, I like that about you.

I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are mine.

Remember, you and I have been going steady for years, and I still don't love you yet.

As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God.

He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.

You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you.

But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell.

That way, we'll be together twice. This will really hurt God.

Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had.

We have been...

watching dirty movies, cursing people out, loving worldly things, having bad influences, stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, being judgmental, back stabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.

SURELY you don't want to give all this up.

Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us. This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you.

I'd like to say 'THANKS' for letting me use you for most of your foolish life.

You are so gullible, I laugh at you. When you are tempted to sin, you give in.

HA HA HA, you make me sick.

Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life. You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood.

So go ahead and teach some children how to sin.

All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible.

Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too. Kids are like that.

Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now. I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again. If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess your sins, and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left.

It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous. Don't get me wrong, I still hate you.

IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.

P.S. If you love me, you won't share this

MY FIRST COLORING BOOK

2011-08-16T02:54:00.000-07:00

Life is so good to me. God equipped me with great abilities. Loving the people around me for example. Or facing the people who hate me with a smile. He also gave me the capacity to help my friends with their queries. I feel glad to lend them a hand with a little of my blood and sweat.

I cannot construe how blessed I am with my life. Not materially, though. I am thankful for all the chances my Creator is giving me to serve Him, to know my family is safe every single day, and behold my friends' love and trust no matter what I do. Perceiving these blessings make my days worthwhile. I have spent 17 years of my existence looking for satisfaction, complacency, ease, whatever you call it, through material stuffs but I never found true contentment. When I got my first coloring book, I was so happy. I thought life couldn't get any better. Then came other stuffs like the television, computers, cellular phones, and other products of technology that make our lives cushier. Hell, I don't think so! Technology? It's not really all well and good. It leads human existence to its extremities plus it brings unbelievable effects on the beloved and borrowed planet, Earth. But, as I was saying, life's not all about that. Remember: Life is a test, and Earth is the battleground. Praise God. Thank Him no matter what. Surely, everything will fall to its rightful place.

Believe all the way through! AFG!

YOU WEREN'T INVINCIBLE WHEN YOU WERE A TEENAGER

2011-08-09T04:25:00.000-07:00

You weren't invincible when you were a teenager. You were just stupid. -Josie

Seriously, I can't fathom why of all the words in Jodi Picoult's book, this one hardly left my mind. Maybe because I find it true. Adolescence is one of the most critical stages in life. Well, I think all of the stages are. But, being a young adult, 18 years old and below presumably, is a very complicated phase. Always inflicted with beliefs by some stranger, decisions aren't made with conviction, words are uttered without the slightest clue of who or who's not listening. Always headed to the unknown. Always unaware. Always on the go. Teenagers do all the things they want, no matter what the repercussions are. They, I mean WE think that we understand everything but we don't. We just don't. But still.

Me, being a seventeen year old kid who happens to be stupid as well really agrees that all the trouble we've had and we will have are all part of growing up. In high school, we go to school with all our hearts not JUST to learn, admit it or admit it, but to seek new undertakings. What happens to whom or goof around with friends you've known since freshmen year. Laugh at this, snort at that. Then head home. It's a routine. We make mistakes, moments later, it's all figured out. The next day, you're okayy again. Your mistake becomes a part or your past you might or might not forget.

It's actually funny. Really. We do all sort of stuffs ignoring what might happen next. We just want to be happy. Try something new. Take the risks. We're infallible after all! And so we thought we were. In the end, I wonder why I laughed at my teacher. When all of a sudden, I am making the same mistakes she did. Why did I cheat in my exams? When unfortunately, it's not really the right thing to do. Why did I say all those nonsense to other people? When I could've realized I was on the verge of absurdity right from the start. Well, maybe because I am a teenager. Because I'm still 17, I still use my amygdala instead of my prefrontal cortex to make decisions. That means, I'm not there yet. I can still create a thousand mistakes and mess around with whoever.

Just kidding. Misapprehensions might be inevitable but that doesn't mean we should stop trying hard to do good things. Sure, we get into trouble but errors and indiscretions are always part of the choices we make. You may be in some kind of dilemma as to what verdict you would/should implement but you still have the choice. It's a matter of being sensitive to your surroundings. That means, you can't just slam the door at someone else's face, curse at someone you hate on Tumblr/Facebook/Wherever, or make fun out of someone who's blameless enough. Don't always try to use the reason that because you are a teenager, you must be unrecognized or misjudged or misunderstood.

We should realize that we are not to tolerate our rough behaviors. Not that I'm making concrete sense at all, but I just think life is too short for all the crap we do (a line I have always used since the birth of my blog). Yes! We are teenagers. But we are not invincible, and in one way or another, we know we become stupid.

COLLEGE!

2011-08-01T23:33:00.000-07:00

I am very much happy about the progress I'm making in Accounting III. And I hope it continues 'til the end of this semester (end of 5 years. I hope).

I got a perfect score today. Well, sort of. I got 31 points as bonus for making a Balance Sheet and Income Statement aside from the Worksheet, and that made me feel so blessed. To my surprise, I also ranked 2nd in our Biology exam, the subject which I loathe so much. I like Biology, until I met our professor. It became so hard and complex. So, I learned to read about phosphobilayers, cytokinesis, carotenoids, etc. etc. But now, I feel a little nervous because it's almost Mid Term, so I have to prepare for all the exams. I don't wanna fail my parents, nor myself. I hope it turns out the way God planned everything. Hopes up!

Btw, the barricades in my life are actually lowering down. That means, I am uncovering my flaws and ready to face whatever comes. I just hope it's not what I didn't expect. But then, life's about that, making a whole lot of mistakes and expecting what if's instead of realities. So, I guess it's human nature to feel belittled and discouraged sometimes because they think over-positively. HA! Life is so full of everything! I can't explain all the things that bother me but the answer is always the same, PRAY! Pray a lot!! PYC coming up! AFG!

PAULO COELHO

2011-07-23T09:01:00.000-07:00

My material goal in life, besides passing my major subjects and become a CPA-Lawyer, is read all of Paulo Coelho's books. He has this style that I really love and I don't know why. Maybe because of the ideology but that's it, I can't give further commentaries. Even though his concerns are more on very mature things like which decision to make, career paths, or religious views, I still manage to comprehend and make some realizations. Maybe the real reason why I love his books so much is because they speak not just in my mind but in my totality as a human being and that includes my heart and soul. And also because they seem so realistic. Substantial. When your into soul searching, his books are perfect. Or when you're just looking for some insights or words of wisdom.

1987 - The Pilgrimage
1988 - The Alchemist ✔
1990 - Brida
1992 - The Valkyries
1994 - By the River Piedra, I Sat Down and Wept ✔
1996 - The Fifth Mountain
1997 - Warrior of the Light
1998 - Veronika Decides to Die ✔
2000 - The Devil and Miss Prym
2003 - Eleven Minutes ✔
2005 - The Zahir ✔
2006 - Like the Flowing River
- The Witch of Portobello ✔
2008 - The Winner Stands Alone
2010 - The Aleph (will be released this year)

I still have a long way to go but it's okayyy! I don't mind! :))

VAMPIRE DIARIES SEASON 3!

2011-07-22T09:01:00.000-07:00

MY SENSITIVITY MURDERS ME!

2011-07-22T08:33:00.000-07:00

I am a very sensitive person.

Really. It's such a misfortune to hear or feel things that are hurtful. I feel down and derogated. I can't help it whenever someone failed to give me a smile although we know each other. Sometimes I feel afraid that I might have done something wrong. I am scared to realize that my family is disappointed because of me. And whenever my friends ignore me, I feel so dejected. Down like a shooting star. That's the main reason why I hate myself for having such a sensitive side, although I still have that aloof personality in me (when it comes to arrogant, && boastful people). When I happen to notice that I am being overlooked (i know how selfish that sounds), my tendency of feeling trashed is eminent. It brings out the tears in me. I just don't like being rejected in any way. I hope I won't ever again feel that kind of feeling. It's the worst suffering for me. Good thing I can't remember the last time my friends ignored me. Or my family. It's such a relief!

But please, someone teach me how to contain one's self. Teach me how to humble my heart and mind. To think positively, clearly. Someone help me. I don't want to continue misunderstanding situations that are doubtful of consideration. Things that are unworthy of my spotlight. Because sometimes, my own sensitivity murders me. Emotional death. >.<

VAMPIRE DIARIES ON SEPTEMBER!

2011-07-18T04:26:00.000-07:00

Also, here are few of my favorite scenes from TVD.

1. Damon and Elena Kiss

2. I love you Elena -Damon. :"< (this one's my fave)

3. It's always gonna be Stefan. :"<

4. From Daddy Issues

5. From By the Light of the Moon

6. First Kiss (Elena and Stefan)

7. THIS. <3 HAHAHAHA.

8. and this.

9. also this.

10. :)

Actually, I love all the scenes. These are just few of the best. LOL. :)

TANGLED

2011-07-15T05:34:00.000-07:00

I am currently engaged with The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho! I'm so caught by the book. Good news, I am recovering from my past failures. I'm becoming more prayerful too, praise God. My family believes in me, and also the people who love me, so PRESSURE! LOL. Anw, I know, I will endure. I will survive! HAHA. Upcoming events: Provincial Youth Conference on August and Campus Fresh by the end of July. AFG! :)

THE HUNGRY CITIZENS OF GENERAL SANTOS

2011-07-10T21:21:00.000-07:00

Our society has been tainted with countless of corruption issues and unjustified truths. Millions of Filipinos are starving, waiting for a miracle, waiting for nothing. Is that the way things should go in our country? In the Pearl of the Orient Seas where nature thrives and tropical riches flood?

Philippines belongs to the Third World. And we all know for a fact that the government CAN NOT feed 91,983,000 Filipinos, CAN NOT put all the children to school, CAN NOT give enough livelihood programs to the simple citizens of the country, and CAN NOT provide housing units to the whole community. It's hard maintaining all these. It's not always possible that everyone can eat three times a day or drink water potable enough. It's not that easy to implement the CBL (Constitution and By Laws). It's not. But that doesn't imply that they are impossible.

General Santos City is a developing city. But of course, there are still citizens like the group of fishermen who are untapped by the global changes, improving technology, even adequate electricity supply. They live in the vicinity of simple living, and simple means no television set, insufficient earnings, little education or no education at all. When they were asked, what happens when storm comes in, or what would they do if the higher authority claims to own the land where their small abodes are built, what would they do? They usually answer with great dismay, but can do nothing about that because they are poor, and they have no right of fighting for it. They say, they can go nowhere, because that's all they have. They earn less than two hundred pesos a day, not even enough to pay the expenses from their fishing equipment. Not even enough to educate them, which is of course, the government's responsibility. It's sad to know that many people are suffering from the inability of whoever's in-charge to support the lives of these people. It's pretty much heartbreaking to know that those who are at the top are enjoying the daily services this worldly place can offer, stealing money from my parents' taxes, giving special treatments to other names behind bars, while many, MANY, are hungry, many are looking for a slight change, many are waiting for a little sacrifice. As far as I'm concerned, the budget for all of us is enough. It's just a matter of budgeting correctly and honestly.

What is the government doing to change our lives? Is there still such thing as change? We shouldn't lose hope. Even though, we are all expecting for a great shift in the economy which is almost impossible, even though we are disappointed, there is still hope. And that hope remains untouched even though the situation says, there's nothing left to hope for.

When that change occurs, I pray that it's not too late. That the hungry people from General Santos City, or from the other parts of the Philippines, are not yet dead and gone.

IT'S TIME TO EMPTY THE TRASH

2011-07-07T23:33:00.000-07:00

Whenever we do something wrong unintentionally like misspell a word on a very critical piece of paper or spill a box of cookies, we always have the idea of throwing it out in the trash bin and get a new one. We dispose of it and forget about the mistake we did. Move on. It's that simple.

But in reality, forgetting our mistakes in life is not as easy as throwing a piece of crumpled paper in the garbage. It's not that easy to empty the "trash" in our lives. And that's because we are afraid of the consequences. Everyone has this dark secret in them that will never come out from their own willingness. Admit it or not, we all have something to hide. We all have something to run away from. Avoid it from showing off. Or Prevent it from coming near us. We all have those misfortunes.

Life is indeed full of surprises. Many things will come your way. May it be in its positive form, or the other way around. By that, we find it hard to reciprocate everything back to its original form. It's hard to undo things. Mostly when it has already taken its effect on other people. We hurt. We give pain. We cause trouble. We become dreadful. But that's not all. We hide. Many of us will say, I'm strong enough to face my problems, I'm brave enough to face the repercussions of my actions alone. But I don't think so. We are always scared to face it all. We just act as if we are that tough, we are that brave, we are that forceful. The truth is, we're only fooling ourselves. We are weak. We are nothing. We are only full of deceitful pasts. We are never that good. We will never be.

The point is, although mistakes in the past are hard to forget, although our appalling deeds always haunt us, it never became a reason to give up. Give up when there's still life is a no-no. We are never that strong to face all that's bothering us but we are always blessed enough to have a God bigger than everything. Everything. We are not brave enough but prayers are always at hand. Faster than lightning. Faster than 911.

Surrender. That's the first step. Don't face the consequences alone. God is here. God is moving. Empty out the trash in you and start again. Mistakes are part of growing up. Try your best not to commit them again. Everyone of us is going through the same rough patches in life, including me. I am not a righteous person and I am not in the position to judge anyone. But take it as an advice. Because just when I was about to give up, God made His way in me. And I know, He will do the same to you. Just think about it. Once you empty yourself and let your heart be filled with the goodness of Christ, your award will be indescribable. And that's an eternal life with Jesus Christ, your Savior, your Redeemer, in heaven where everything else is made out of love.

LIVE ON!

2011-07-02T02:08:00.000-07:00

I'm currently reading a book. Despite the heavy burden that factors around me are causing, I still find time to read PC's The Witch of Portobello.

Things are going way out of hand for me. In school, I'm having a hard time understanding my lessons which made me realized, I am becoming dumber and dumber by the minute. Then, there's this distorted sleeping pattern of mine. Lastly, I've been missing someone I have to avoid forever. Only God knows how long my tragic life would last. So, while I'm still here, I'm gonna do all the possible things of living my life to its fullest. Keep the faith, I tell myself. Keep the faith. Live on! :)

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2011-07-02T00:57:00.001-07:00

when he comes for me in the near future, then i'll tell you. :)) sino ka nga?

Johanna Lyn

THERE IS ONLY ONE HAPPINESS IN LIFE, TO LOVE AND BE LOVED

LEE MIN HO

FAMILY CULTURE

GAME ON!

LOOKING UP

EVEN WITH ALL THE MISFORTUNES, LET'S CLOSE 2011 WITH A BIG SMILE

REMEMBER DECEMBER

MSU CAMPUS BASED YOUTH CAMP 2011

UPDATE!

formspring.me

LIFE IN A DAY

I WILL BE RECONSTRUCTING THIS SITE. SO BEAR WITH ME.

HOW CAN WE SAVE THEM?

WHAT MAKES YOU BEAUTIFUL - ONE DIRECTION

HBD!!!

GOD OF THIS CITY - CHRIS TOMLIN

IT'S TIME TO SEE GOD'S POINT OF VIEW

TGIF!

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER (OCTOBER 6)

THE RITE

TRUST FALL

A DROP IN THE OCEAN

FAILURE IS STILL A SUCCESS

AS RANDOM AS LIFE, AS RANDOM AS ME

UP

BROOKE FRASER

1st WEEK OF SEPTEMBER

BROOKE FRASER

BRIDA

FOR A CHANGE

PROVINCIAL YOUTH CONFERENCE 2011

TAKE HEART

EXAAAAAAAAAMSS!

YOU ARE THE SALT AND LIGHT OF THE WORLD!

REPOST: LETTER FROM SATAN

MY FIRST COLORING BOOK

YOU WEREN'T INVINCIBLE WHEN YOU WERE A TEENAGER

COLLEGE!

PAULO COELHO

VAMPIRE DIARIES SEASON 3!

MY SENSITIVITY MURDERS ME!

VAMPIRE DIARIES ON SEPTEMBER!

TANGLED

THE HUNGRY CITIZENS OF GENERAL SANTOS

IT'S TIME TO EMPTY THE TRASH

LIVE ON!

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AGE TO AGE

DARLING, YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

WHEN YOU GIVE YOURSELF AWAY

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!

I JUST WANNA CRY :"(

What do you always carry with you at all times?

MONSTER

EVERYTHING IS OKAYY.

single or taken?ü

When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?

What would you try if you had no fear?

IAN SOMERHALDER

JUST A DAY

who is your dream date? :)

when will you think the world will end? :)

IF THE WORLD ENDS TOMORROW

What ice cream flavor describes your personality the best?

I LOVE KIDS CALLING ME ATE

if you could be any other person living right now, who would you be???

HEAVEN OR HELL

FACEBOOK DEACTIVATED :)

IF YOU ASK ME, I REALLY CAN'T SEE THE FUTURE EVERYONE'S TALKING ABOUT

What movie can you watch again and again and never get sick of?

What's your favorite quotation?

FAMILY REUNION

MY NANAY ♥

ANOTHER POST FROM FACEBOOK

THE LORD'S PRAYER

What's your funniest memory? ;))

What annoys you the most? =)

What are the songs in your playlist that you're most likely to play on repeat? =))

IT'S FOR THE BEST